Comments remaining for NaComLeavMo: 132
Movies in my Netflix queue: 75
Months it took to get pregnant: 22
Days until closing on the house: 20
Years I've been crushing on DH: 18
Pounds over my goal weight: 15
Weeks I've been a mother: 13
Hershey's chocolates I consumed today: 10
Wedding anniversary next month: 6
Binkies the dog has eaten: 3
Most hours slept in a row last night: 2
Day care providers needed: 1
I was struck with a terrifying realization last weekend: things were going well. Too well. You know, those times when your hair looks good every morning. Even in the Seattle drizzle.
Fortunately, I didn't have to wait long to find out what the next major kink would be. I got an email yesterday from our day care provider. Remember, the one I loved who was going to come to our house starting Monday to watch Bean for peanuts while I worked my well-balanced 21-hour schedule? If that sounded like a fantasy, turns out it just might be.
Poor woman, she's going through a personal financial struggle right now, and her lawyer told her not to start working. She's upset, I'm upset.
First of all, I really liked what her references had to say about her, and felt she'd be a good sitter for Bean. Second of all, his current day care situation ends FRIDAY and I have not so much as a long-lost great aunt nearby to lend a hand. (And of course I feel horrible that the potential babysitter is going through a rough patch.)
So here's the "choose your own adventure" part of my blog. I want your opinion. After getting this news, I'm trying to listen to what the universe is saying to me. Other than if you keep eating all that chocolate, you'll never lose the baby weight. Should I try to hire someone else, or is this a sign?
Reasons to stay home full time:
- More time with Bean
- Can get more involved in mom's groups / make friends
- Can keep a closer eye on the binkies
- Part time salary minus cost of day care is a rather depressing figure anyway
Reasons to work part time:
- 21 hours a week that I feel like an actual adult
- Padding in our budget / $ to replace the binkies
- Job is very convenient (i.e. tough to find such a flexible job if I want to go back)
- It'd be nice not to waste both of my degrees
(While all these decisions are stressful, it's not lost on me that I am incredibly, incredibly lucky to need day care in the first place. Thank you, Lord, for my precious little man.)
Update: The original sitter has agreed to start on Monday and work until we can replace her. So we are covered for a bit. But do we want to replace her... ?? !!
Tall, Dark and Damaged by Sarah Andre
8 hours ago